so today was my first day home in a while. it was...interesting. mother and i made brunch and then went out to lord & taylor. we're getting consultations on friday! i'm happy. i love having my makeup done. i'm such a chic.
im definatly amused that i'm in a relationship. i never thought i'd say that and actually be happy to say it. in other relationships...it was more like umm yeah we're dating but i never really cared about the other person. not this time. i like him hehehehe. boys are fun!
leaving for florida in 9 hours! i dont know if i should be trepadicious or whatever. i really dont know how to feel. i'm in essence, going down to say goodby to nanny. she doesnt remember who i am when we talk on the phone, even though she has a picture of me right beside the phone. its not like she's young or anything...and she was never especially nice to me. but that doesnt matter. the past doesnt matter at all. its not right to hold grudges with anyone...especially somebody who you know isnt going to be here much longer.
as weird as it sounds...i'm not afraid of death. i believe very strongly that we are created from the earth and will return to it. everything is very circular for me...the goddess brought us from the ashes and that is will return to it when she chooses. i dont think that you can choose how you die, but you can choose how you live.
every day we make choices, some more important than others. it's what choices you make that determine who you are. i choose to constantly reinvent myself. i choose to be afraid of being truly happy. i choose to only let a few people see who i really am. i choose to change the world. i choose to write. i choose to break all the rules. i choose to win.
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