I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I really dont. I feel like I have no direction anymore except down. Absolutly none. I have no idea what I want to do at all...not just in regards to work and the future but with everything.
The second I think I finally have a plan, somthing happens and it goes to hell. Like with my schedule...didn't get the courses I need for next semester. With work...score an amazing job but can't take it. With my major...think I want to work on the Hill but I'm not "Capital Hill Barbie". With my friends...think we're really good friends and I can trust them with anything and then they go and talk shit about me behind my back. With my schoolwork...I think my papers are somewhat decent and that I'm doing a decent job and then I get a freaking B.
(It's no coincidence that B is the second letter of the alphabet. Second. As in not first...not the best. Substandard.)
People might find a B to be an acceptable grade. But it is not. People don't get into grad school with Bs on their transcript.
I am DONE with this crap.
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- Lilith
- I can't wait for the day of reckoning to come...if only to see what humanity is truly made of.
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- wait
- fuck it
- landslide
- heaven on stilts
- save me
- mourir est un art et comme tout d'autre je le fais...
- tricycle
- bound by love
- danger of the water
- fuck
- white daisy passing
- sweet emotion
- yeah right i wish
- headlock
- just cant last
- alone in kyoto
- over
- so long, so long
- uggabugga
- first instant
- loose ends
- clouds up
- my machete
- before the dawn
- daylight robbery
- tangled and dark
- getmeoutofhere
- blood red summer
- surfing on a rocket
- pearls on a plate
- duality
- letters
- what the hell is wrong with us?
- wolves
- misstep
- war on sound
- and so it goes...
- sixes and sevens
- every planet we reach is dead
- punkture
- no remorse
- homebird
- famillar
- have you got it in you?
- nobodies
- wish for
- the walk
- mobscene
- get me outta here
- whisper to a scream
- sexy mistake
- grace
- just for now
- drive in drive out
- one down...
- crush on you
- and she lived happily ever after...
- one hour and seven minutes
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1 comment:
Hey, couple of days back, you stopped by my blog and left a messege, thanks. I have been reading your blog since and I am really sad that you are in the middle of so much pain. Please please please remember that this phase will go away as soon as you feel a little happy - may be going outside, sitting in the sun or a park bench. Whatever you feel like. I have those days, and I think a lot of people have bad days. Please don't give up. Write whatever comes to your mind and I will try to read. If it is ok to comment, I can keep comenting as well. Feel better, ok. xoxo
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