closing in

whatever. i dont care anymore. i'm completly over being here and i dont want to have to deal with all ofthe drama. i feel like i have to play "parent" to half the kids here and its horrible. i am not that old yet and just because i dont act like a dumbass all of the time does not mean i'm willing to take care of people.

i came here so i could escape having to be the caregiver. i can take care of myself but that under no circomstances means that i will care for others. primary example-- i hate babies. they cry, bitch, shit their pants and cant take care of themselves. which is why i will never have children. just because i hate them when their young, does not mean that i dont hate them now.

sorry...that just needed to come out.

today was pretty chill. after class, jaim and i chilled for the first time in a while. it's really amusing how alike we are. i have this theory that subconciously, people are going to be friends with the ones that make them look good. and by good in this case, i mean NOT the crazy, promiscuous, party girl. i love jaim to death though. she's another one...we get eachother. same shitty family life, same horses, same issues. except the manifestations of how we are coping with them now are very very very diferent.

kins and i got a decent room for next year. its 113 in memorial...the big room on the balcony. i guess it doesnt matter that much that we're not on 2nd or 4th because we can always party up there then come back down to our nice, quiet floor with a fantastically clean bathroom. which is important. we dont like dirty. and since its on the balcony....

i'm working on this paper right now. i usually hate my academic writing but i think i might actually like how this one is turning out so far. i figure, i'm trying to make a topic that is kind of dry as interesting as i can and if that means taking some stylistic risks, so be it.

roughly 56 days till i'm in vermont...i'm petrified but so excited. dfa is an amazing organization and i honistly credit them for the return of the house & senate to democratic hands last cycle. their focus on the grassroots aspects of issue advancement is revolutionary and means a lot more democrats are going to be elected...all the way down the ticket.

and that, ladies and gentlemen is how we win elections.